Hang in there gypsy108... I met a young gal tonight (I live next to our town beach and boat landing). She’s the same age about as my younger daughter. She really opened up about her situation. Her boyfriend has always had a problem with meth. She always thought she could help him and such. Pregnant with her third kid with him he was trying to kill her and the baby in the womb. She was able to get outta there and moved home with her folks. Tonight was getting a little alone time with her dog. And my dog wanted to meet her dog so I got her leashed so she could meet the new friend. I recognized the dog and asked if she was (I won’t say her name, but it’s the same as my daughters) I feel it’s good to listen to people and hopefully encourage them. The reason I recognized her is her dog. She raised German Shepard's and our neighbor had got theirs from her. She’s like yep, that’s me. Very nice young lady... I told my daughter and she’s like wow, she sounds strong... I read the last few posts and then yours Gypsie... I have no idea what your going through, but I hope you get out of your situation if it’s at all toxic. We all play our roles in things. But I just hope your safe, and can get into a better situation. It may mean sacrifice such as starting out in your SUV. ?
But watch for other options as far as living arrangements. Just be very cautious as it’s just as easy to just get into another toxic situation.
Reading Maki2’s comment about alone time... I can relate. I personally felt more alone being married then being... well, alone! I don’t trust my judgement and such. So being alone has worked out ok. I don’t know you, your situation and such. But hearing your comments it sounds like your hard on yourself. Your patience is maybe a bit like mine... none, zilch, nothing! Haha. Just want to say, stay strong... don’t keep selling yourself short. Stay real and in the moment. Whatever you do don’t give up! This is your time to shine!