Gloom Despair And Agony On Me. nmko

[GotSmart]

Gloom, despair, and agony on me
Deep, dark depression, excessive misery
If it weren't for bad luck, I'd have no luck at all
Gloom, despair, and agony on me

Just when I get a better handle on my diabetes, as well as a working brace on my trick knee, along comes another problem.  I have been having memory problems lately.  I used to be able to keep a lot of information in my head, but lately it is hard to keep track of what I am doing.  Getting old, right?

My new doctor was giving me some routine tests, and noticed some tremors in my right hand.  He sent me in for a complete blood panel, as well as an MRI of my head.  A couple days ago I went in to see the Neurologist, (first appointment).  We were discussing things, and he wanted to run tests. I informed him of the current tests and the MRI.  He brought up the scan on the computer, and stopped when he came to a white spot.  

Apparently I had a stroke.  This kid sat there and told me I was lucky, as it is not an important part of the brain.   :huh:  EXCUSE ME???  It all is important to me! 

If I am a good boy, I might be allowed to go to the Colorado RTR.     As it is, strict diet and meds.  I have to be under surveillance.   :dodgy: 

I am wanting to run away, but my van is disassembled.

 

[Rugster]

Wow! I hope you fully recover and can make it to any gathering you want to

 

[ggwoman]

O my goodness! And you didn't realize you had a stroke? In a way, that's good news and also what your doc said about the part of your brain affected. Remember the brain has wonderful ways to reconnect all parts of itself. A friend of mine had a pretty bad stroke a year ago, and he also has diabetes issues, but he is back to driving and doing woodwork (his love in life) and getting around upstairs and down. He's purt near back to his old self again now a year later, so I'm wishing you also a full recovery.

 

[Queen]

Crappy news, man, sorry you have to deal with it. I get the wanting to run away, my least favorite thing ever is being involved with docs and hospitals.

 

[Txjaybird]

There is nothing I can say that will make this better          I was glad when you made it home from RTR.........You were in a lot of pain and seemed totally stressed from your posts at that time.  While this is bad news it could be a whole lot worse.

I'm starting my own runaway fund....in a fruit cake tin labeled......".I'M GONNA   R U N N  O F T  FUND"  

Take care,  I bet  there's lots of folks here that will want to hear how you are doing.....me for one.     
                                                         Jewellann

 

[PatsyG]

I am so sorry this is happening to you. You deserve so much better than this.  You are always helping others, including me, and there is no way to help you back.  Except that you know we are rooting for you.  Later, you may be glad that it is not worse, but not now.  And that is OK.

 

[highdesertranger]

bummer hope it turns out well. highdesertranger

 

[Every Road Leads Home]

Hi,
Sorry to hear. I can relate. On my 4th year of being disabled from Lyme. Finally recovered enough that I decided I'd take my first trip in four years. Booked a flight to visit my brother in Portland. Day of flight, I wake up with a swollen hand the size of a softball. Go to ER, get admitted for six days! Ended up being infected from a VERY small cut I had on my hand. IV antibiotics for six days to get it to go down. Seems everytime I try to get out of here, something happens. Not giving up though, I like to win, so I'll beat this if it's the last thing I do. Hoping you see a speedy recovery as well.

 

[RV-Hopeful]

GotSmart - I'm soooo sorry and I'll send prayers and virtual hugs ...
{{{{{hug}}}}} {{{{{hug}}}}}
and healing energy
and fast recovery
and happy thoughts
and joyous moments

 

[GotSmart]

O my goodness! And you didn't realize you had a stroke? In a way, that's good news and also what your doc said about the part of your brain affected. Remember the brain has wonderful ways to reconnect all parts of itself. A friend of mine had a pretty bad stroke a year ago, and he also has diabetes issues, but he is back to driving and doing woodwork (his love in life) and getting around upstairs and down. He's purt near back to his old self again now a year later, so I'm wishing you also a full recovery.

Since I am dyslexic, my brain does not work like a normal brain.   :huh:  I will be doing something, and as long as I do not try to analyse it. no problem.  If I try to think things out,~~~ ZOOT SKIPPED A GROOVE!  I am just standing there trying to remember what I was doing.

Crappy news, man, sorry you have to deal with it. I get the wanting to run away, my least favorite thing ever is being involved with docs and hospitals.

This is twice now I had to come off the road because of my health.  If I had known I was going to live so long, I would have taken better care of myself.  

There is nothing I can say that will make this better        I was glad when you made it home from RTR.........You were in a lot of pain and seemed totally stressed from your posts at that time.  While this is bad news it could be a whole lot worse.

I'm starting my own runaway fund....in a fruit cake tin labeled......".I'M GONNA   R U N N  O F T  FUND"

Take care,  I bet  there's lots of folks here that will want to hear how you are doing.....me for one.                                                       Jewellann

I have to get me one of those tins.  (I loved that movie!)  Having been in pain constantly for as long as I remember, it is hard to notice any new damage.  

I left RTR without gathering up all my loaned tools.  I hope they found good homes.  

I am so sorry this is happening to you. You deserve so much better than this.  You are always helping others, including me, and there is no way to help you back.  Except that you know we are rooting for you.  Later, you may be glad that it is not worse, but not now.  And that is OK.

You roll the dice, and make the moves.  We all should have been rich, and most of the .001% should have to flip burgers for a living.  

The Tribe helps everyone, in my case I feel I am still paying back for the support and encouragement when I was broken down.  

Anyway as long as I stick with the meds and diet~~~  :-/  The chances of another stroke will be less.

 

[Gunny]

Get Smart. I hope your health continues to improve. I know it sometimes feels like two steps forward and one step back, but hang in there, you're tough.

There has been a lot of good work recovering from a stroke, I know even a small one is scary, but take heart, you'll get back to your old self soon.

 

[Hippiechk]

Damn! Rest up & stick to that diet so they cut you loose ASAP!!

Hugs...

 

[GotSmart]

I had my oldest daughter with me when I spoke with the neurologist.  I use her as my memory now.  Apparently the part that was affected is the part that helps me solve problems.  Maneuvering in a city or a maze.  

Since my father died from a stroke when he was my age, I need to clean up my diet. 

Thanks for the words everyone. 

John

 

[ggwoman]

John, I'm dyslexic too and have the same probs when I get nervous or stressed. Suddenly lefts/rights in real world go haywire and that is why I can't follow directions without a landmark. NSEW and left right can get screwed up in a hurry. I find a picture/illustration really helps so I can basically ground myself by seeing the whole thing rather than lost in the minutia. I'm a whole forest rather than the trees kind of person. I wonder if doing mazes (paperbacks moving on to corn mazes and walkabouts) would be good exercises for the brain?

You are so right about diet too. Soda and alcohol and sugar, any super carbs do not work for me. My prediabetes and a1c blood levels went completely normal 6 months after I changed to a high protein and veg diet like paleo, atkins etc. Have you ever tried? I think more clearly too...well, most of the time. LOL

 

[WriterMs]

Oh my, John... as others have stated this is both horrible news AND good news (in that you are not totally disabled nor gone from us).

And I can empathize with the frustration of being held back in s&b when you just want/need to roam.

Lots of love coming your way from this forum and from others in your life, too, I'm sure.

Keep us posted.

 

[Gary68]

yep,your a gonner,forgot the "whoooo" in the lyrics

you will be fine if you heed this warning shot,you just got lucky ,so head up,forward ho and eat those apples and garlic

 

[WheelEstate USA]

Hey John...Follow the plan, get better and we'll see ya next RTR.

 

[ilovemyvan]

My husband is recuperating from triple bypass. He received the best get well card yesterday. I'm re-sending (as in re-gifting) it to you.

Prescription from Dr. Rusty Scalpel

20 Fun Things to do While You're Recovering

1-Pick a foreign accent and talk in it all day.
2-Make a Halloween costume out of your bedsheets.
3-Answer an ad on how to make Big Money At Home.
4-Learn the Morse code.
5-Build a fort out of tissues and toilet paper rolls.
6-Practice to become the World's Fastest Remote Control User.
7-Name the 50 states; now try their capitals.
8-Become a ventriloquist.
9-Make a macaroni sculpture.
10-Try to sell your macaroni sculpture on eBay.
11-Teach yourself to levitate.
12-Say the alphabet backward.
13-Practice exotic bird calls.
14-See how long you can go without blinking.
15.Gargle "The Star-Spangled Banner".
16-Plan how you'd spend the money if you won a lottery.
17.Make puppets out of empty pill bottles.
18-Call a talk show and say you're a space alien. See if anyone notices.
19-Draw happy faces on your toes.
20-Concentrate On FEELING BETTER SOON!

All the best to you GotSmart.

Nicole

 

[GotSmart]

My kids are going to hate you!   :huh:  I act weird enough already.  Peacock calls at 5 AM!    PRICELESS!

 

[ilovemyvan]

=> to your kids
:heart: => to you

Nicole