Cheli
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Well doesn't this suck. My boyfriend and I, who have been together for just over three years, broke up last night. For good this time. I say for for good this time because for the last couple of months it's been a struggle once he realized I was serious about wanting to become a van dweller.
It's something I've always talked about since we met so it's not like it was a complete shock to him, but I don't think he realized it was something I was actually going to do. I always talked about it as a dream, you know someday I'd like to leave and travel the country. But over the last six months or so I've been talking about it more and more and over the last couple of months I've been taking actions to make it happen.
Well things have been very hard the last month or so as he has been watching me sell things here and there and talking about it more seriously. It was hard on him, I understand that. And it was hard on me because although I love him, we are very opposite and I knew the day was going to come where we go our separate ways. He has ZERO interest in leaving his hometown and family to travel.
So I have mixed emotions. I'm sad and broken hearted but at the same time I almost feel relieved that it's finally over and I can move on with my dream that wasn't his as well. I don't mean to sound harsh but I've been struggling with this for a little bit now. This has been a constant source of grief for a month now between us, fighting, crying, lets make this work, we can't make it work, I love him, I want to stay, but I need to change my lifestyle and go, I don't want to hurt him, I don't want to hurt myself. Ugggggh no matter what I do someone gets hurt.
So anyway, time to go full force with this plan now that I'm not holding myself back anymore.
It's something I've always talked about since we met so it's not like it was a complete shock to him, but I don't think he realized it was something I was actually going to do. I always talked about it as a dream, you know someday I'd like to leave and travel the country. But over the last six months or so I've been talking about it more and more and over the last couple of months I've been taking actions to make it happen.
Well things have been very hard the last month or so as he has been watching me sell things here and there and talking about it more seriously. It was hard on him, I understand that. And it was hard on me because although I love him, we are very opposite and I knew the day was going to come where we go our separate ways. He has ZERO interest in leaving his hometown and family to travel.
So I have mixed emotions. I'm sad and broken hearted but at the same time I almost feel relieved that it's finally over and I can move on with my dream that wasn't his as well. I don't mean to sound harsh but I've been struggling with this for a little bit now. This has been a constant source of grief for a month now between us, fighting, crying, lets make this work, we can't make it work, I love him, I want to stay, but I need to change my lifestyle and go, I don't want to hurt him, I don't want to hurt myself. Ugggggh no matter what I do someone gets hurt.
So anyway, time to go full force with this plan now that I'm not holding myself back anymore.