This has been a great topic. I agree with yesican, I find that putting the past behind me has been the hardest part and for now I feel that I have finally done that, for the most part. <br />But now a new fear arises, what happens if my van breaks down and no money to repair it, this has occasionally come up. I will not let this stop me, I will not let this stop me.......... <br />This is the only place that i can think of where I have felt like I truly fit in. I think that a large part of it is the people on here and our similar goals. This is a place where we can speak our thoughts and feelings without fear of retribution or ridicule. And we all have a lot to say. We are all trying to escape a world of people who don't understand. Nor do they try. Though I love my family, we no longer connect. And I can no longer live my life to keep them happy. My happiness is out there. And I am going seek my dream.<br />Sorry about the ranting, I needed to get that out.