Upside down

[Syfyinsanebabies]

I'm Siedah. Sy if its easier for you. 36. Failing struggling mother single. I'm new here but not to the life of movin. traveling and being nomadic. So to speak. I moved around a lot since 8yo. Per my mother helpojng my aunt after unc passed. Stable from 8to16 with her then decided per convenience of aunt being close to school id live with her. My mother was ok with it. Then bounced around from 18 to now. Places Ny self.nj self.Pa self.Ma self. nj self.ncself .md kids.nc kids.md kids.nc kids.Va kids. dc kids. And now us, md. Long story short I never stay one place too long. Stumbled upon this life and reborn dolls early 2020 and wished I could bring both together. As I can't and don't drive , always lived near public transport so no need in my mind to learn driving. i gravitated more toward the babies then into earky 2022. The reborns were my haven my peace andmy calm. Still can be but i m focusing on now a place that we dont have to worry about losing now an goin forward... I have a wonderful collection of cuties but I'm not content anymore. I want to take myself and kids and dolls into the world. Live on the go livevin nature have it as iur yard etc. We pretty much live in the apt as uf in a tiny house. Me and son more lol. Conserve water. Mindful baths and monimal showers. Etc. We dont an wont have much as life keeps takibg things from ys. A sign perhaps?....this all sed, My 13 YOD would not like this On the go or nature driven travel life lol. She's very much a stability needed city child. She'd probably stay either grandma [my mother] or my Lil brother n his wife/family in SE part of ciuntry while son an i are on west cosst. Mostly . That's OK. Sge has that option to not come. I've given her that. My 8 yos though, is all for it. Lol. Always asking mommy when you learning to drive? Mommy wen we getting the rv? I was looking into that at first .a trailer to tow. but decided I wanted to create my own part build unit on the go. Srepvan. Plus a tiny house in future. I'm already looking into land etc lol. In two states. My boy asks now mommy wen we making our car house lol. So it's past time and behind. Beyond. To get started. Hard tho with no income or savings having lived check to check since 13. Bin working since then. It really hit me yesterday. Thinking how many times I been homeless. Just me. Then The 5 months time last year I was homeless with the kids. Didn't like that . The now 4 storage unit's over the past 13 years I've lost. Countless precious to keep to me items I've lost in these units etc. Heirlooms list. Keepsakes lost. Items gifted. Etc. Now my kids keepsakes and baby memory keep items are up for chopping block Monday comung,10.2.23, and I'm losing again ....it's sent me to spiral again. I've suffered depression and anxiety for 11 years now and the reborns help with that but this constant eviction or toss out life is not easily overcome by my babies and actual kids anymore. I'm withdrawn a lot. Still can't drive. Losing my vision for the past 11 years and its tipping worse now to the talk of possible cornea surgery. Idek if i qualify yet for disability. The wait game is no fun. And yea that's where I am. And I wish wen I had the slightly better sight I tried for driving license. But that time was also during peak covid. **sigh** Talk about life's joke on me. Constantly. And on us. I wanted to live and own my own since 21 age wen i had my daugh, and travel for years and any time opportunity may have bin around, life got in the way. Now I'm just this defeated mommy of 2 who is bordering depressive homelessness again and not only about to lose my current storage in less than 18 hours but also may lose this apt-which would be ok of I had funds a income good eyes and my license and a step van etc as I hate being stagnant- which is our only roof; possibly soon if I can't find $6,000 by this week l. Life sure has a way of kicking me constantly. This is just the short choppy version of my and the kids' bunk life so far. I've bin failing all 3 of us for years. And I've just about given up hope on a good turn around in life

 

[bullfrog !]

Maybe have one of your older children get their driver’s license and pool resources. Look into jobs that come with housing on Coolworks.com. or programs like AmeriCorps for your older children. The power of a close family working together can be of much benefit to all.

 

[maki2]

Vision that is not good enough to get a drivers license is not going to work for this lifestyle. But as you appear to have an eye doctor they can tell you if your vision is good enough for a drivers license or if it is not. They do know what it takes to qualify.

No one but your can get you started on the road to obtaining a drivers license. But there are two parts to achieving that and one of them is the knowledge of the rules. So start there, because there is no need to actually get in a vehicle to learn that part. In fact you should know all of that rules stuff before you ever get in the driver’s seat. You will have to pass a written test on that stuff so you can start learning it immediately. It is all on the internet. Plus you can also take a defensive driver course online without having to get behind the wheel. So get busy and be pro active and make that dream come true by starting on your written part of the driving education.

Then report back to us on having taken your first steps to achieving a nomadic lifestyle. We will be rooting for you all the way!!!

 

[Syfyinsanebabies]

Maybe have one of your older children get their driver’s license and pool resources. Look into jobs that come with housing on Coolworks.com. or programs like AmeriCorps for your older children. The power of a close family working together can be of much benefit to all.

Older children?? LOL shes 13. And son is 8. But thanks on that. May help another. Will look into coolworks. Thanks . No helpful family. Just self and kids. Honestly. I'm all we have

 

[Syfyinsanebabies]

Vision that is not good enough to get a drivers license is not going to work for this lifestyle. But as you appear to have an eye doctor they can tell you if your vision is good enough for a drivers license or if it is not. They do know what it takes to qualify.

No one but your can get you started on the road to obtaining a drivers license. But there are two parts to achieving that and one of them is the knowledge of the rules. So start there, because there is no need to actually get in a vehicle to learn that part. In fact you should know all of that rules stuff before you ever get in the driver’s seat. You will have to pass a written test on that stuff so you can start learning it immediately. It is all on the internet. Plus you can also take a defensive driver course online without having to get behind the wheel. So get busy and be pro active and make that dream come true by starting on your written part of the driving education.

Then report back to us on having taken your first steps to achieving a nomadic lifestyle. We will be rooting for you all the way!!!

Hahaha hey. Yes you are correct. I've taken this written test and passed each time first time 6 times since I was 18. As I said I've always bin near buses and trains lived in cities [or outskirt with 1 or 2 busses]. Tested for fun really. Following the HS and college criwd of what to do etc. And never followed through with getting provisional license except once here in md in 2014 and i need a license driver (its called the rookie driver course) to help with driving hours. Only had big sis and she didn't care to help. Also needed my own car. Never had funds to get one. Still don't. There was not ever a penny left from checks to save. And had an unc who used to gift old cars, and I was never thought of. So no car no real interest in driving kinda thing... and no extra in checks thing. Single mommy life I guess on that. I can try for written once any Dr's see me -which I'm in process of. They don't take medicaid f0r special eye care.-Need to find funds for that too. But yeah. I'm motivated just hindered. Always.

I can't and don't see it otherwise. If you do after reading this, open my eyes plz [[lol. No pun intended.]]

 

[maki2]

Medicare paid for all 7 of my eye surgeries plus all the exams. In 2015 I had cataract surgeries on both eyes. But that year I also had a retinal issue and that was covered as well. The next year I had two more retinal surgeries. They do not always cover the cost of regular
eye exams and glasses. But they do pay the cost for one pair of eye glasses after having cataract surgery.

They even cover the cost for medical conditions such a dry eye syndrome treatments.

Before you give up hope talk to your insurance coverage agent and to the eye clinic as well. If you have a retinal issue that is a serious condition that can lead to blindness and it definitely should be covered by Medicaid. But you must act as your own advocate and keep on top of this stuff yourself. No one did it for me, I was just absolutely determined that I was not putting up with going blind. I actually had to insist on being referred to a retinal specialist. It was a darn good thing I did as that specialist had the right equipment to see exactly what was wrong. The first procedure on my right eye had a 98% success rate predicted to arrest the macular puckering that was occurring but unfortunately I was one of the unlucky 2 people in a hundred so had to get a subsequent procedure on that eye. I did have loss of detail vision in both eyes but I can see to drive just fine. Fortunately it is not macular degeneration which is a progressive condition.

If I can do that advocating for myself there is no reason you cannot be your own advocate as well. Be strong and carry on. It takes being firm and tough. That is also an essential for a full time nomadic lifestyle. If you cannot handle being your own personal advocate for getting vision care you are not a good candidate for the rigors of full time living on the road. There are lots of challenges in this lifestyle, very much so including the weather and looking after a vehicle. You have to be brave and also strong in character.

 

[peteg59]

Welcome to the site.
You have had a tough life from the words you post.
Sorry to hear that, but most sorry for your children growing up in abject poverty.

Don't know if your children's father(s)? can be tapped for funds, but that's worth looking into, unless it's not.?
A go fund-me with your story might also help get you some seed $ to start out, but the vehicle living lifestyle is not free or cheap if you have any mechanical trouble out on the road.

But if it is a true desire for you to get licensed, and get a vehicle to live out of, best wishes to you on getting where you want to be...

 

[Syfyinsanebabies]

Vision that is not good enough to get a drivers license is not going to work for this lifestyle. But as you appear to have an eye doctor they can tell you if your vision is good enough for a drivers license or if it is not. They do know what it takes to qualify.

No one but your can get you started on the road to obtaining a drivers license. But there are two parts to achieving that and one of them is the knowledge of the rules. So start there, because there is no need to actually get in a vehicle to learn that part. In fact you should know all of that rules stuff before you ever get in the driver’s seat. You will have to pass a written test on that stuff so you can start learning it immediately. It is all on the internet. Plus you can also take a defensive driver course online without having to get behind the wheel. So get busy and be pro active and make that dream come true by starting on your written part of the driving education.

Then report back to us on having taken your first steps to achieving a nomadic lifestyle. We will be rooting for you all the way!!!

Hahaha hey. Yes you are correct. I've taken this written test and passed each time first time 6 times since I was 18. As I said I've always bin near buses and trains lived in cities [or outskirt with 1 or 2 busses]. Tested for fun really. Following the HS and college criwd of what to do etc. And never followed through with getting provisional license except once here in md in 2014 and i need a license driver (its called the rookie driver course) to help with driving hours. Only had big sis and she didn't care to help. Also needed my own car. Never had funds to get one. Still don't. There was not ever a penny left from checks to save. And had an unc who used to gift old cars, and I was never thought of. So no car no real interest in driving kinda thing... and no extra in checks thing. Single mommy life I guess on that. I can try for written once any Dr's see me -which I'm in process of. They don't take medicaid f0r special eye care.-Need to find funds for that too. But yeah. I'm motivated just hindered. Always.

I can't and don't see it otherwise. If you do after reading this, open my eyes plz lol. No pun intended.

Welcome to the site.
You have had a tough life from the words you post.
Sorry to hear that, but most sorry for your children growing up in abject poverty.

Don't know if your children's father(s)? can be tapped for funds, but that's worth looking into, unless it's not.?
A go fund-me with your story might also help get you some seed $ to start out, but the vehicle living lifestyle is not free or cheap if you have any mechanical trouble out on the road.

But if it is a true desire for you to get licensed, and get a vehicle to live out of, best wishes to you on getting where you want to be...

Thanks you for welcoming me. It has been tuff the past 11 years. I will take him once I can get on my feet and see. We live together now but uts not a good situation and hes all but physically gone. Mentally emotionally and all hes never here and when he is its best he isnt. If you get my meaning.. as we have had court issues in the past I want to be able to confidently represent myself and not repeat the tragedy of 2016 to 2019 wen they were awarded to him due to my not living in their state , long story there, and due to my not having my own place. Tho I did have a 4 bed house at that time. It wasn't good enuff for that judge etc.

the plan is once he leaves for CA as he brags about now, we get our mobile nomadic home and then I can request support. As i dont want anything hindering my case or giving hom leverage in court. And not working , not having a ppace, not being societally "stable" does not work in my or any1s favour. Really, all he is/was and is/was worth now was the check he brought home. Sad to say but true. hes only here to pay bills not care for them. By any means or in any way. I really drew the short stick with him. I stayed for the roof and stability of the kids. Now that isnt even certain...

I'm upset with myself having the kids in this situation also. I did not ever want or wish this for them. Idk how my mother was so strong to do this (she too was and is a single parent) and we never were homeless. I dropped the ball on that portion of parenting. I'm not comparing us. We are 2 different ppl. I just don't understand where she found the strength. I don't have any and yet I still push. I can only imagine for her.

Gofundme hasn't worked for me. I've posted on my fb and really don't have anywhere else to share it. But per my usual I will make a way from thin air...

Thank Q for the well wishes and yes I hope as well to get things lined up and headed in the right direction. I don't want either of them repeating my experiences