Syfyinsanebabies
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I'm Siedah. Sy if its easier for you. 36. Failing struggling mother single. I'm new here but not to the life of movin. traveling and being nomadic. So to speak. I moved around a lot since 8yo. Per my mother helpojng my aunt after unc passed. Stable from 8to16 with her then decided per convenience of aunt being close to school id live with her. My mother was ok with it. Then bounced around from 18 to now. Places Ny self.nj self.Pa self.Ma self. nj self.ncself .md kids.nc kids.md kids.nc kids.Va kids. dc kids. And now us, md. Long story short I never stay one place too long. Stumbled upon this life and reborn dolls early 2020 and wished I could bring both together. As I can't and don't drive , always lived near public transport so no need in my mind to learn driving. i gravitated more toward the babies then into earky 2022. The reborns were my haven my peace andmy calm. Still can be but i m focusing on now a place that we dont have to worry about losing now an goin forward... I have a wonderful collection of cuties but I'm not content anymore. I want to take myself and kids and dolls into the world. Live on the go livevin nature have it as iur yard etc. We pretty much live in the apt as uf in a tiny house. Me and son more lol. Conserve water. Mindful baths and monimal showers. Etc. We dont an wont have much as life keeps takibg things from ys. A sign perhaps?....this all sed, My 13 YOD would not like this On the go or nature driven travel life lol. She's very much a stability needed city child. She'd probably stay either grandma [my mother] or my Lil brother n his wife/family in SE part of ciuntry while son an i are on west cosst. Mostly . That's OK. Sge has that option to not come. I've given her that. My 8 yos though, is all for it. Lol. Always asking mommy when you learning to drive? Mommy wen we getting the rv? I was looking into that at first .a trailer to tow. but decided I wanted to create my own part build unit on the go. Srepvan. Plus a tiny house in future. I'm already looking into land etc lol. In two states. My boy asks now mommy wen we making our car house lol. So it's past time and behind. Beyond. To get started. Hard tho with no income or savings having lived check to check since 13. Bin working since then. It really hit me yesterday. Thinking how many times I been homeless. Just me. Then The 5 months time last year I was homeless with the kids. Didn't like that . The now 4 storage unit's over the past 13 years I've lost. Countless precious to keep to me items I've lost in these units etc. Heirlooms list. Keepsakes lost. Items gifted. Etc. Now my kids keepsakes and baby memory keep items are up for chopping block Monday comung,10.2.23, and I'm losing again ....it's sent me to spiral again. I've suffered depression and anxiety for 11 years now and the reborns help with that but this constant eviction or toss out life is not easily overcome by my babies and actual kids anymore. I'm withdrawn a lot. Still can't drive. Losing my vision for the past 11 years and its tipping worse now to the talk of possible cornea surgery. Idek if i qualify yet for disability. The wait game is no fun. And yea that's where I am. And I wish wen I had the slightly better sight I tried for driving license. But that time was also during peak covid. **sigh** Talk about life's joke on me. Constantly. And on us. I wanted to live and own my own since 21 age wen i had my daugh, and travel for years and any time opportunity may have bin around, life got in the way. Now I'm just this defeated mommy of 2 who is bordering depressive homelessness again and not only about to lose my current storage in less than 18 hours but also may lose this apt-which would be ok of I had funds a income good eyes and my license and a step van etc as I hate being stagnant- which is our only roof; possibly soon if I can't find $6,000 by this week l. Life sure has a way of kicking me constantly. This is just the short choppy version of my and the kids' bunk life so far. I've bin failing all 3 of us for years. And I've just about given up hope on a good turn around in life