With statements like these ...
I hope to enjoy the company and maybe companionship of a woman. Seems that I just can't make my sox match or choose what meals are healthy for me. You get the drift
traveling from place to place is not how women are designed for the most part
... you are effectively cutting yourself off from the majority of women -- at least the interesting, fun, and self-respecting ones (including the ones you're talking to by posting in this forum). Who wants to be (a) pigeonholed based on their gender and (b) relegated to helping a man match his socks and choose healthy meals? There are 12-year-olds who can do those tasks. In all the time that you have been participating in this forum, have you paid any
attention to the % of fellow participants who are women "traveling from place to place"?
If you need that much help with activities of daily living, maybe you should hire a maid and not try to call it "companionship." Or you could admit that you're not really that helpless. The world has changed. That kind of attitude doesn't fly any more. Male and female helplessness both used to be considered cute by some people, but they're really not any more -- no shtick works forever.
I'm sure every single person on this forum has something
they were once attached to that, rightly or wrongly, doesn't fly any more. We move on or we get left behind. \_(**)_/ your choice.
You seem very attached to these expectations (at least, they haven't changed a hair, as far as I can tell, since you began posting to this forum). If they're more important to you than either fun or companionship, and if the feedback you're gotten here is so meaningless to you, carry on you're doing great! Otherwise consider pushing yourself out of your comfort zone and trying out new activities and new attitudes. There is no easy way. You just gotta do it. The old world is not coming back.
And dude, if this is really about bereavment rather than life choices, get some support for that -- it's huge. I'm sure your wife was a wonderful woman. But missing her is one thing (and you can find a good way to do that) -- trying to bring back the Ozzie and Harriet era is another. It ain't gonna happen.