outdoorcamogirl
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Hi everyone! I have been a lurker on this site for some time. I have always been a very driven small business owner....never rich, but always self employed. I am 53 and am now at a point in life where the "Race" for money and accomplishment just doesn't appeal to me anymore....I have always been somewhat of a loner....very independent- I find myself in a place where I have very little debt and have to be at my home base in southern AZ for work 3 days a week. I have a small travel trailer and 2 athletic hiking dogs- but I find myself struggling. I LOVE the idea of being off grid boondocking in the middle of the forests of northern AZ...I love educating myself on bushcraft and survival skills...trouble is, when I set up camp on one of my excursions and the dust settles I find myself restless....I hike, I read....I paint....but I find that I am restless, dare I say bored- or am I lonely(though I am never lonely at home). When I am at my home base I have projects....the internet....and I can hide behind all my "Stuff"...so I am rarely bored or restless...but when I pack myself and my 2 wonderful puppies into our little vintage rig for some solo camping fun I can't seem to work past my mental block of slowing down and being in the moment....it's all I've ever wanted...
I have always been a free spirit- a go getter- I was married then divorced long ago- never had any children and enjoy living life on my terms and like being single- I have lost both of my parents in separate unrelated unexpected health events over 10 years ago which devastated me, although I do alright, I think probably I really have never completely recovered- I have always lived alone(except for the few years that I was married) and love it and do not feel like I am pining for a relationship...but I do know that having friends that "Get me" would probably add a bit of gratification to the simple loner life I choose....I have friends and family that I have good relationships with, but they don't get my simple frugal loner lifestyle....What is my problem?? Boondocking in my little travel trailer in the forest is all I ever wanted....I have researched, read all the books....planned and camped along the way- now that I can actually DO IT part time I find myself a bit apprehensive(is that the right word??) of what do with myself once I get there....I can't seem to relax and enjoy myself....It is so frustrating and discouraging....Has anyone else ever struggled with this?
I have always been a free spirit- a go getter- I was married then divorced long ago- never had any children and enjoy living life on my terms and like being single- I have lost both of my parents in separate unrelated unexpected health events over 10 years ago which devastated me, although I do alright, I think probably I really have never completely recovered- I have always lived alone(except for the few years that I was married) and love it and do not feel like I am pining for a relationship...but I do know that having friends that "Get me" would probably add a bit of gratification to the simple loner life I choose....I have friends and family that I have good relationships with, but they don't get my simple frugal loner lifestyle....What is my problem?? Boondocking in my little travel trailer in the forest is all I ever wanted....I have researched, read all the books....planned and camped along the way- now that I can actually DO IT part time I find myself a bit apprehensive(is that the right word??) of what do with myself once I get there....I can't seem to relax and enjoy myself....It is so frustrating and discouraging....Has anyone else ever struggled with this?