<p style="margin: 0px;">Today, I witnessed the unnecessary death of a beautiful 8 year old boy. My heart hurts, my head is numb, and I feel somewhat confused. Please allow me to vent.</p><p style="margin: 0px;"> I was headed the 30 miles home after seeing my last patient, (I'm a homecare nurse), and decided to take the Escape route which knocks off 8 miles but has no traffic to speak especially now due to the sloppy muddy conditions from snow melt. A big Blazer came up behind me so that when I turned onto the Escape route, I pulled to the side and slowed to let it pass. Thirty seconds later I see it flipping on the road, flinging stuff. I immediately dialed 911. As I pulled up to the scene, the Blazer lay on its side. I didn't want to go see what was inside, it couldn't be good, but the dispatcher kept encouraging me to go look. As I got out of my car, a young woman came to the back of the truck and was screaming and trying to pull something from beneath it. When I got up there, the head and arm of a young boy stuck out from beneath the Blazer. His eyes were lifeless, and no breaths could be seen (how could he, he had a ton of weight on his chest). There was no use doing CPR and I couldn't move the truck. I felt helpess, afraid, and so wanting to make that boy come back to life. All I could do was place my hand on the shoulder and back of the sobbing mom as she cradled the dead boy's head and I talked to dispatch until the first responder arrived about 6 minutes or so later. It was another minute or two before there were enough young men to push the vehicle up enough to scoot that lifeless boy from under the truck.</p><p style="margin: 0px;"> I sat with mom in the trooper's vehicle before they took her to the hospital to be checked, she told me that she was toldby the nurse at the clinic to rush him to the clinic before it closed because he had a 104 fever, so she picked him up and laid him in the back and "rushed" to the clinic. </p><p style="margin: 0px;"> What could I say that could ease her guilt. Yes, he would be alive if he were wearing a seatbelt, but she did what she thought was best for her son because he was sick and it was more comfortable to lay than sit strapped in a seat. Now her son is dead, and she will forever live with that guilt. I just held her, prayed for her in silence, and let her know that she was not a terrible mom or person as she claimed but that terrible things happen to good people.</p><p style="margin: 0px;"> Please, wear your seatbelts and make sure everyone in your vehicle has one to wear and uses it. What a heavy heart and a useless death. He was such a beautiful little boy!</p><p style="margin: 0px;"> Thanks for letting me vent. I was there a total of 2 1/2 hours because of the troopers doing the investigation. When I left, I went straight to my daughter's, hugged her, and sobbed for the first time tonight. I will be alright but this has forever changed my life.</p>