Alcohol plays an important part in your life, otherwise it would not be mentioned. You may be like the coughing hacking smoker who says they can quit any time they like, but they enjoy smoking so choose not to quit. The truth is addiction is a very powerful thing. You may have a hundred excuses why you drink, but they are excuses and not reasons.
Finding an alcoholic is like finding a wealthy person. Ask someone with $5 are you wealthy, they will say no it is the person with $50. Ask that person and they will say no it is the person with $500, ask them, no it is the person with $5k. it keeps going. There is always someone else to point a finger at and say not me, but them. They figure about only 2% of alcoholics make it to skid row. The rest die, get locked up, or live in a vehicle so that their drinking money will go farther. The yet may have already come.
My advice, (from a past drinker), is have a look at if you want to be a nomad so that you have more drinking money and time. What you spend your time thinking about becomes your master.