hard stuff...

[wildmountainhoney]

I am not feeling so good. Not sure why I'm telling you, cuz well I don't even know you. I'm sure this moment will pass, but I really just want to bang my head against the wall until I can't feel anything anymore...  I posted pics of my pets to find good homes. I think when I am not being selfish it will just be better for them. I don't think staying with Big G is a permanent solution, just temporary til I can live somehow on the road, despite the many obstacles of that life that I can't wrap my little blonde head around... i.e. car maintenace, a proper vehicle, a job which I'm not sure I can handle physically and at this point mentally... The fact that driving is difficult for me and tremendously difficlult on busy or crazy highways... I am getting rid of pretty much anything I can't carry.. all that stuff that i "love". I am disappointed with my children who take and take and take and who by the way "know it all".... I could keep going but surprisingly I am drawing a blank. My neck is hurting, I probably did more than I should but it needs to get done. I either have a week here or a month, depending on money. I'm very sorry for this rambling, pity party, however I needed to get it out... please resume your regularly scheduled program... thanks for listening. Time to put Humpty together again.

 

[stude53]

<span style="color: #008000;"><strong><span style="font-family: arial,helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: medium;">You are feeling wild, mountain honey! <img src="/images/boards/smilies/crazy.gif" alt="" align="absmiddle" border="0" /></span></strong></span><br /><br /><span style="color: #008000;"><strong><span style="font-family: arial,helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: medium;">But we all have days like that, and sometimes it's just good to vent <img src="/images/boards/smilies/bawl.gif" alt="" align="absmiddle" border="0" />and get it all out.&nbsp; Letting go of so much in a short amount of time can be very stressful, but take heart and things will get smoother soon.</span></strong></span><br /><br /><span style="color: #008000;"><strong><span style="font-family: arial,helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Good luck and GodSpeed, <img src="/images/boards/smilies/thumb.gif" alt="" align="absmiddle" border="0" /></span></strong></span><br /><br /><span style="color: #008000;"><strong><span style="font-family: arial,helvetica,sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Bob</span></strong></span>

 

[SoulRaven]

Ruck it up Butter-Cup... What you do have is a working plan that will bring you to a final destination and happiness... Nothing comes easy in any aspect of life, to include changing your life style... Truth be told those that see it through in this life style are truly free and happy for the first time in their lives, it is a great feeling being in control of your life...

 

[Guest]

Good advice from Bob and Steve....one thing is sure....it WILL pass! Everything changes and as long as you feel it, recognize and talk about it and then move on, you will be fine...<br />Bob and Steve mention that making changes like you are doing is very stressful....take care of your self, spend time in prayer and meditation if you do that...or however you get in touch with your real self...and rest in that space...I often just stop and focus on my breathing for 3 or 4 breaths and let it calm down and deepen....then move on with the day...It has become the best moments of the day no matter what is happening....<br />blessings....<br />bri

 

[wildmountainhoney]

I WILL be fine, thank you all very much. I think the final "straw" was posting my pets, especially my dog, for good homes. They truly are my best friends... Being that they are I need to do what is best for them.&nbsp; Oh yes, I pray and I know God will see me thru, even when I can't imagine how...&nbsp; I have much to be grateful for, many blessings.&nbsp;&nbsp; Thank you all again

 

[SirJoey]

<br /><span style="font-family: 'comic sans ms', sans-serif;"><strong>Hang in there, WMH! I can soooo relate, FWIW! Still haven't decided whether I'm gonna part with my beloved (albeit retarded) little dog myself. Giving her up would be tough, but so would living with her in a small RV, especially with limited facilities, so IDK.&nbsp;</strong></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: 'comic sans ms', sans-serif;"><strong>Don't feel bad about "venting"! Heaven knows, I've had to do it a bunch lately, but there are lots of great, supportive people here!&nbsp;</strong></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: 'comic sans ms', sans-serif;"><strong>Thank God U have faith, as do I. It's all that keeps me going through this mess! God bless!&nbsp;<img src="/images/boards/smilies/smile.gif" alt="" align="absmiddle" border="0" /><br /><br /></strong></span>

 

[wildmountainhoney]

Thanks SJ! Much appreciated... Looking past all this, maybe one day we will all get to sit around some bon fire and laugh together! That is a nice thought! Will keep you in my prayers!<br /><br /><br />

 

[dragonflyinthesky]

I'm sorry. Whats best for the animals-knowing what is right and then doing it. I know its hard.<br /><span style="color: #ff00ff;"><strong>Dragonfly</strong></span>

 

[peacetara]

Wildmountainhoney, I'm sorry it's tough for you right now! &nbsp;The best part is, YOU KNOW you will get thru this. That's SOO HUGE! that's gigantically huge! &nbsp;So be proud of yourself that you know this!<br /><br />Leaving things you love behind is always hard. &nbsp;I have 4 kids myself, and I'm sadly not able to take them with me, but I will get to see them all the time, and that makes it bearable. &nbsp;The hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life was telling the kids I was moving out.<br /><br />With Love,<br />Tara

 

[wildmountainhoney]

Thank you Dragonfly and Tara!<br /><br /> Extra, extra hugs to you Miss Tara! I can only imagine how hard that must be! You are a brave and inspiring lady!

 

[yesican]

To endure the dark days like today make you appreciate the sunny days like tomorrow!&nbsp; Know you have friends here and willing to lend our ears.<br /><br />Rae

 

[Mortisha]

Big HuggZ Honey..... Take care of yourself and all will fall into order soon!&nbsp;

 

[Seraphim]

I believe God opens doors, but we must have the courage to walk through them. I think you have your sights on the next door. It's just not always easy, and it seems you are meeting resistance from the family you would normally turn to for help. So never feel bad about venting, ranting or seeking support here. Your concerns are normal.

Sounds like you need to get away from crowded city driving, and out in the country where you'll find driving more relaxed.

One day at a time, one step at a time. You'll get there.

 

[katelyn]

I was where you were 3yrs ago, job was outsourced, unemployment ran out, couldn't find a job (michigan of course), and waiting 6months for disability to go through. I even had to give away my 2 wonderful cats. Hang in there!!!&nbsp; When things got tough for me I had to look at what I did have.&nbsp; Eyes, hearing, being able to walk.&nbsp; I know it's kinda corny but it helped me.... Things will get better<img src="/images/boards/smilies/smile.gif" border="0" align="absmiddle">

 

[wildmountainhoney]

You all are truly wonderful! I am so grateful to have stumbled upon this site... However, I believe God takes us where we need to be when we need to be there. <br /><br />Yesican - it is a beautiful sun shiny day today! <br /><br />Hugs back to ya Mortisha! I believe it will fall into place. Especially when I'm not resisting!<br /><br />4x4 - I'm in TX... that was an awesome thought! Cuz she likes to be spoiled! <img src="/images/boards/smilies/smile.gif" border="0" align="absmiddle"><br /><br />Seraphim - "Country roads... take me home!" Yes! <br /><br />Katelynn - I have a bunch of family in Michigan - both my girls were born there many moons ago, I know it is rough there. But, beautiful! Nice views! I'm glad you are doing well now and it gives me something to aspire to! And, most days I am counting my blessings, as I have many!!!!<br /><br />I'm in a much better place today! Thanks for listening and thanks for all the wonderful advice and support, It does mean a lot to me! <img src="/images/boards/smilies/smile.gif" border="0" align="absmiddle">