I really understand everyones coments, I was not only talking about money. They broke a piece on my tractor lost the key, and dinged up doors moving the Items that reminded me of my mother. I have forgiven just dont have any friends so I thought id share what was my current frustration. Many times I have almost typed and didnt becouse a lot of it was just my need to vent some of the transittions im going through. I sure hope to be out by feb. so I can meet some of the people on this sight. I thank everyone here is fabulous and sometimes maybe we do need a little reminder of how we should think instead of how we do think.