We've been socially indoctrinated our whole lives with "this is how you're supposed to do it". Hard to not internalize something that is around you from the beginning so when we, I, start to do it differently I have a conflict of old values (which I did not choose) vs new values which I am mindfully choosing to enhance my life experience. And in that resolution of conflicting thought patterns is some pain, doubt, grief even though our intuitive self KNOWS we are pointed in the right direction. It's a process that ebbs and flows for me. I've had this false ego built around what I thought I was supposed to be, even if done reluctantly. As that part of the egoic self dies/morphs/changes there are some death throes and I find myself sensitive to other seeing me as "less than good enough". Even tho I know it's a lie I have to proactively say "NO!" to those thoughts and fill my world w/ what empowers me.
I "retired" early (not really I just quit working like a slave) so I tell people a version of my reality they don't have to struggle with.
I'm retired, not homeless, I'm houseless for all practical purposes but maintain a legal residence. I'm choosing to exploring certain parts of the country via a long term travel adventure which will incorporate a LOT of wilderness camping and exploration.
To be honest I'm in a very similar situation, just getting prepared which is really gather stuff I think I'll need, although I really stopped that as I was gathering too much, and getting shed of meaningless clutter. In about 3 weeks my current living arrangements will end and I'll be making my maiden voyage. My rig will be FAR from anything close to 'done' but, like you, I'm a survivor and a great McGyver type person so I'm going to load up w/ very basic necessities and tools, join the caravans/van builds in November and create a thriving reality for myself.
Tbh, there are times when I'm scared to death of it and wants to run but part of me knows that's a good sign.
Courage is mindfully acting in spite of the fear, imo.
I was watching a YT vid last night and it showed a time lapse shot of all the stars in the night time desert sky. The biggest grin automatically broke out on my face as I said to myself "Soon, that will be mine, too!"
I applaud your externalizing your thoughts here and setting those boundaries. Although most mean well there's always some that want to offer unsolicited criticisms.
I "retired" early (not really I just quit working like a slave) so I tell people a version of my reality they don't have to struggle with.
I'm retired, not homeless, I'm houseless for all practical purposes but maintain a legal residence. I'm choosing to exploring certain parts of the country via a long term travel adventure which will incorporate a LOT of wilderness camping and exploration.
To be honest I'm in a very similar situation, just getting prepared which is really gather stuff I think I'll need, although I really stopped that as I was gathering too much, and getting shed of meaningless clutter. In about 3 weeks my current living arrangements will end and I'll be making my maiden voyage. My rig will be FAR from anything close to 'done' but, like you, I'm a survivor and a great McGyver type person so I'm going to load up w/ very basic necessities and tools, join the caravans/van builds in November and create a thriving reality for myself.
Tbh, there are times when I'm scared to death of it and wants to run but part of me knows that's a good sign.
Courage is mindfully acting in spite of the fear, imo.
I was watching a YT vid last night and it showed a time lapse shot of all the stars in the night time desert sky. The biggest grin automatically broke out on my face as I said to myself "Soon, that will be mine, too!"
I applaud your externalizing your thoughts here and setting those boundaries. Although most mean well there's always some that want to offer unsolicited criticisms.
