outdoorcamogirl
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OK....here it goes...baring my soul....I have been a lurker on this forum and following Bob Wells for years.....
I admire those of you who have known down to the core of your being that living in a car, van or RV was what you wanted for yourself...either by choice or because life forced you to choose it....I understand that it offers freedom that one cannot truly understand until you actually experience it for yourself....
I am one of the "Drones" of society....I have always been grounded and responsible....always been a business owner...managed to buy a modest doublewide on a few acres in the country in southwest Arizona- spent many years living the dream of animals and all the material things that one tends to accumulate that suggest you "Have arrived" at the threshold of success.....I am 54 have lived here for 23 years....am now debt free....have been divorced for years....never had any kids...Lost both of my parents in separate unexpected incidents in 2005 and 2008- we were very close and I was devastated....such a crippling time and many years to work through, but by the grace of God I managed to keep it together....I have two brothers who live in the area but they are both married, have families and are running like hell chasing the American dream....I feel like an untethered soul....I have had the same business for years but am totally bored with it....though I love my home I am SOOOO burned out on these dreadful desert summers....the desert used to speak to me....I had enthusiasm for life....now that I am older, have done most of the things on my bucket list and my parents are gone I feel lost....I have no idea what I want....a relationship is not the answer since I tend to be more of a free spirit and a loner- I get along great with people but prefer company on my terms...I am growing fatigued with work...and upkeep of my home...I find myself so irritated by increasing taxes on the home I live in...and it is really too big anyway....do I really need all of this stuff that one accumulates with the sticks and bricks life?? I am beginning to wonder.....
I have a Ford Powerstroke and a vintage off grid travel trailer that I love taking anywhere there are pine trees... I have 2 wonderful hiking dogs...I love to camp and have all the comforts of home but the thought of not having the security of a home base terrifies me...but the only way I could quit my job(close my business) is to sell everything and live off the proceeds, which would be a decent chunk of cash....I am at a point where I don't want to do anything...I don't want to HAVE to DO ANYTHING....I have worked so hard my whole life, been responsible and paid everything off....today is my birthday and I just realized I have lost my sizzle....I am just trudging through life, feeling like "SIGH....Is this Freakin" it??"....I am not miserable, but good God, a pretty boring thought that this could easily be what the next 20+ years of my life could look like....I do feel blessed...but I think I may be ready for a change....I have always been a homebody and loved my home...but I am not sure I want the responsibility anymore- I don't want to work anymore, at least not at what I am currently doing....I feel a little spark of excitement at the idea of having a life that is light and free with far less responsibility...I don't want to start a YouTube channel...and I don't want to feel like I HAVE to do anything...at least not for a while....If I sell everything I will have a decent chunk of money to live frugally with but that though terrifies me, that cash won't last forever....the thought of not having "A Place", a piece of dirt of my own....what happens when your rig breaks down....is that lifestyle really only for the rich people....for me, I would need some sort of RV that has some room for me and my 2 medium dogs to move around, even if it is older....will I regret selling my home...will I freeze in winter....If I choose to "Work Camp"...will I be giving up my business only to be cleaning bathrooms or some other grunt work for minimum wage?? Is there really a community of like minded people....people like me that have experienced the same things I am noting here?? Though I can be somewhat of a loner, If I give it all up I don't want to be lonely...I feel the pull....I feel the desire for change in my life and I truly admire all of you free spirits that have no issues selling it all for life on the road.... Although I am a very confident and capable individual I have always been the "Homebody"....the "Stable" one that loves security....but now, I am not so sure that same mind set serves me any longer....I am bored...my life has lost it's sizzle....and I have lost my "Mojo"....Do any of the ladies connect with anything I have said....can you give me a bit of input on the positives of this life that might make things seem a little less scary?? I would hate to give it all up only to regret it....but the though of another summer in the desert makes me want to run and hide-I would appreciate any input! Thanks
I admire those of you who have known down to the core of your being that living in a car, van or RV was what you wanted for yourself...either by choice or because life forced you to choose it....I understand that it offers freedom that one cannot truly understand until you actually experience it for yourself....
I am one of the "Drones" of society....I have always been grounded and responsible....always been a business owner...managed to buy a modest doublewide on a few acres in the country in southwest Arizona- spent many years living the dream of animals and all the material things that one tends to accumulate that suggest you "Have arrived" at the threshold of success.....I am 54 have lived here for 23 years....am now debt free....have been divorced for years....never had any kids...Lost both of my parents in separate unexpected incidents in 2005 and 2008- we were very close and I was devastated....such a crippling time and many years to work through, but by the grace of God I managed to keep it together....I have two brothers who live in the area but they are both married, have families and are running like hell chasing the American dream....I feel like an untethered soul....I have had the same business for years but am totally bored with it....though I love my home I am SOOOO burned out on these dreadful desert summers....the desert used to speak to me....I had enthusiasm for life....now that I am older, have done most of the things on my bucket list and my parents are gone I feel lost....I have no idea what I want....a relationship is not the answer since I tend to be more of a free spirit and a loner- I get along great with people but prefer company on my terms...I am growing fatigued with work...and upkeep of my home...I find myself so irritated by increasing taxes on the home I live in...and it is really too big anyway....do I really need all of this stuff that one accumulates with the sticks and bricks life?? I am beginning to wonder.....
I have a Ford Powerstroke and a vintage off grid travel trailer that I love taking anywhere there are pine trees... I have 2 wonderful hiking dogs...I love to camp and have all the comforts of home but the thought of not having the security of a home base terrifies me...but the only way I could quit my job(close my business) is to sell everything and live off the proceeds, which would be a decent chunk of cash....I am at a point where I don't want to do anything...I don't want to HAVE to DO ANYTHING....I have worked so hard my whole life, been responsible and paid everything off....today is my birthday and I just realized I have lost my sizzle....I am just trudging through life, feeling like "SIGH....Is this Freakin" it??"....I am not miserable, but good God, a pretty boring thought that this could easily be what the next 20+ years of my life could look like....I do feel blessed...but I think I may be ready for a change....I have always been a homebody and loved my home...but I am not sure I want the responsibility anymore- I don't want to work anymore, at least not at what I am currently doing....I feel a little spark of excitement at the idea of having a life that is light and free with far less responsibility...I don't want to start a YouTube channel...and I don't want to feel like I HAVE to do anything...at least not for a while....If I sell everything I will have a decent chunk of money to live frugally with but that though terrifies me, that cash won't last forever....the thought of not having "A Place", a piece of dirt of my own....what happens when your rig breaks down....is that lifestyle really only for the rich people....for me, I would need some sort of RV that has some room for me and my 2 medium dogs to move around, even if it is older....will I regret selling my home...will I freeze in winter....If I choose to "Work Camp"...will I be giving up my business only to be cleaning bathrooms or some other grunt work for minimum wage?? Is there really a community of like minded people....people like me that have experienced the same things I am noting here?? Though I can be somewhat of a loner, If I give it all up I don't want to be lonely...I feel the pull....I feel the desire for change in my life and I truly admire all of you free spirits that have no issues selling it all for life on the road.... Although I am a very confident and capable individual I have always been the "Homebody"....the "Stable" one that loves security....but now, I am not so sure that same mind set serves me any longer....I am bored...my life has lost it's sizzle....and I have lost my "Mojo"....Do any of the ladies connect with anything I have said....can you give me a bit of input on the positives of this life that might make things seem a little less scary?? I would hate to give it all up only to regret it....but the though of another summer in the desert makes me want to run and hide-I would appreciate any input! Thanks