michele0203
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A new friend suggested I post where I'm at with transitioning to the van dwelling lifestyle. I hope I can do so here, using this space sort of as a journal.
I'm a highly sensitive person (HSP). This may turn away 99.9% of anyone reading. That's ok. I won't be offended if you move along.
I was born with a predisposition for being very intuitive. My home environment also resulted in me honing in on my people reading skills and sensing the vibes or energy individuals gave off. Survival skill.
I've been in survival mode most of my life. Didn't realize it though until about half way through. Fighting for survival is exhausting. It takes a mental and physical toll. It has had its rewards, though, too. It has given me my drive, my intense work ethic. My perfectionism. I've been fairly successful by society's definition. Except for my weight. Food has been a huge (no pun intended) source of comfort.
I am tired of fighting for survival. I'm tired of living in fear that if I don't follow the status quo then I will be punished...by society, friends, family, myself...
I want to live. I deserve to live. I deserve to be happy. We all do.
I want to find community, safety, aand acceptance. I have everything to learn about vehicles and camping. There is a huge learning curve ahead of me. So many unknowns, so many risks. But I think I am tired of playing it safe.
If given a choice to live for 10 more years and do what brings me joy or live 40 more years and just go through the motions at best, be miserable at worst, I would chose the former. But I hope I don't have to chose. I really want to live at least 40 more years being happy with my decisions! I do hope I'm blessed with another 42 years, the first 42, well, things would be different.
I want to spend time with my nieces and nephew. I want to really be present with others and myself.
I want to live simply. I want to make this world a better place.
AND I think living in a vehicle can get me started in the right direction.
I'm a highly sensitive person (HSP). This may turn away 99.9% of anyone reading. That's ok. I won't be offended if you move along.
I was born with a predisposition for being very intuitive. My home environment also resulted in me honing in on my people reading skills and sensing the vibes or energy individuals gave off. Survival skill.
I've been in survival mode most of my life. Didn't realize it though until about half way through. Fighting for survival is exhausting. It takes a mental and physical toll. It has had its rewards, though, too. It has given me my drive, my intense work ethic. My perfectionism. I've been fairly successful by society's definition. Except for my weight. Food has been a huge (no pun intended) source of comfort.
I am tired of fighting for survival. I'm tired of living in fear that if I don't follow the status quo then I will be punished...by society, friends, family, myself...
I want to live. I deserve to live. I deserve to be happy. We all do.
I want to find community, safety, aand acceptance. I have everything to learn about vehicles and camping. There is a huge learning curve ahead of me. So many unknowns, so many risks. But I think I am tired of playing it safe.
If given a choice to live for 10 more years and do what brings me joy or live 40 more years and just go through the motions at best, be miserable at worst, I would chose the former. But I hope I don't have to chose. I really want to live at least 40 more years being happy with my decisions! I do hope I'm blessed with another 42 years, the first 42, well, things would be different.
I want to spend time with my nieces and nephew. I want to really be present with others and myself.
I want to live simply. I want to make this world a better place.
AND I think living in a vehicle can get me started in the right direction.