SaltySeaWitch
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Bravery is not the absence of fear, but rather, taking action in spite of it. You sound pretty brave to me. Hang in there. You can do this :heart:
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It's been 21 days since I started living in my vehicle and I must say it is so much more than I expected.
I haven't felt this "alive" for as long as I can remember. All the things that I took for granted, light switch, running water, heat, are no longer there in their old form, but,......it's really been exhilarating looking for new sources for these things and I find myself so much more grateful for them than I did in the past. Also, I don't miss for one second the house that I lived in. I'm so glad that I don't have to mow, dust sweep etc., but I think I Will miss my vegetable garden.
I'm slowly leaving my old way of life behind and looking "forward" in more ways than one to what life has to offer and what I may be able to offer to life.
I think I may be more that what I have been told, and more than I think of myself. We'll see!!
Erasing past conditioning is not easy if not impossible, but I'm determined to start this new life on my terms and not dictated by what others opinions of me are. (easier said than done...no?)
I have Dyslexia, I have a really hard time looking people in the eye, and I am Terrible! with expression. Most of the time I don't say what I want to say and then say something that wasn't meant. Very confusing for anyone talking with me. Or, I'll get on a subject and just go,go,go!
I do find that I can write down my thoughts in a more coherent way than speaking, but even then when I read them back it all seems a little disjointed and scattered.
My voice has been silent to anyone for so long that I find myself like a free caged song bird since I have found this forum.
I was really scared at first to write anything here to a bunch of "strangers", but I have found so much warmth and support from so many of you, it is absolutely amazing!!!, and not just for me, but just overall, to anyone and everyone.
For example:
I just love the way "Bulkwilk" has so many inspiring quotes from Kahlil Gibran to Kurt vonnegurt to lift a heart.
The way "Karl" had a listing a few days ago of the things that makes him happy and grateful.
When "Almost there" defends her fellow forum comrades against a forum bully.( secret compartments)
Who would not Be able to leave this forum without a smile after reading "Patrick46" uplifting, positive messages to everyone new and old.
After reading many different posts on this forum, and all the great tips and notes of encouragement, I am finding that, Despair is turning to Hope!!!
I can do this!!......who knew?
I haven't felt this "alive" for as long as I can remember. All the things that I took for granted, light switch, running water, heat, are no longer there in their old form, but,......it's really been exhilarating looking for new sources for these things and I find myself so much more grateful for them than I did in the past. Also, I don't miss for one second the house that I lived in. I'm so glad that I don't have to mow, dust sweep etc., but I think I Will miss my vegetable garden.
I'm slowly leaving my old way of life behind and looking "forward" in more ways than one to what life has to offer and what I may be able to offer to life.
I think I may be more that what I have been told, and more than I think of myself. We'll see!!
Erasing past conditioning is not easy if not impossible, but I'm determined to start this new life on my terms and not dictated by what others opinions of me are. (easier said than done...no?)
I have Dyslexia, I have a really hard time looking people in the eye, and I am Terrible! with expression. Most of the time I don't say what I want to say and then say something that wasn't meant. Very confusing for anyone talking with me. Or, I'll get on a subject and just go,go,go!
I do find that I can write down my thoughts in a more coherent way than speaking, but even then when I read them back it all seems a little disjointed and scattered.
My voice has been silent to anyone for so long that I find myself like a free caged song bird since I have found this forum.
I was really scared at first to write anything here to a bunch of "strangers", but I have found so much warmth and support from so many of you, it is absolutely amazing!!!, and not just for me, but just overall, to anyone and everyone.
For example:
I just love the way "Bulkwilk" has so many inspiring quotes from Kahlil Gibran to Kurt vonnegurt to lift a heart.
The way "Karl" had a listing a few days ago of the things that makes him happy and grateful.
When "Almost there" defends her fellow forum comrades against a forum bully.( secret compartments)
Who would not Be able to leave this forum without a smile after reading "Patrick46" uplifting, positive messages to everyone new and old.
After reading many different posts on this forum, and all the great tips and notes of encouragement, I am finding that, Despair is turning to Hope!!!
I can do this!!......who knew?
buckwilk
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H, I hope you love this one too " In the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures. For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed." Khalil Gibran
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Who knew vandwelling could cure Dyslexia!!!?
That may have been the most beautiful post I've ever seen!!
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
Bob
That may have been the most beautiful post I've ever seen!!
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
Bob
I hope everyone had a Great Thanksgiving !
Let me tell you about mine....
The campground where I am staying ( if you want to call it that ) was deserted as of Wednesday night, and I only saw 2 other people. Wednesday evening about 5:30, I went over to the bathhouse for a shower, and there was this very odd looking person standing at the door to the ladies room. Upon inspection and saying hello, I could tell that something was not quite right with this one. Now please understand that I lived in Tn.-Ky. for about 20 years and I know an " inbred" when I see one. One particular family in Tn. had two "inbred" sons that would cut and deliver firewood to me. These guys were completely harmless, but would scare the !@#$ out of you if you were not expecting them. So when I saw this person at the bathhouse I immediately recognized their condition.
I went on in to the bathhouse and pulled the flimsy chain across the door to lock it. I waited about 10 mins. before I began my shower to make sure there was an "all clear". About 5 mins. into my shower I heard the door being yanked open, and yeeeess! it was the "inbred".I started screaming saying " what the !@#$ are you doing, get the @#$% out of here", then they started screaming, saying what I only could hear as "Sawey,Sawey,Sawey". What seemed like an eternity, only lasted a few seconds and they took off with what I can only describe as a very fast waddle, never to be seen since.
And then......
Yesterday on Thanksgiving, I decided to drive 35 miles to a CrackerBarrel to have a Thanksgiving lunch because 1. I deserve it and 2. haven't had a cooked meal for almost a month. There were hundreds of people there and I thought, no way am I going to wait 2 hrs for a table, so I got a "to go" plate and high tailed it out of there.
Arrived back at camp, had my meal ( which I was Very thankful for, it was delicious!) and was straightening up the inside of my truck when out of nowhere, (really) this guy says "Hello". I turn around to see this 30-40ish guy standing behind me with this sheepish grin on his face,asking me if it would be OK if he rested on at the picnic table for a while. I was thinking," Oh great, what else is going to be thrown at me". With no one else around I was feeling a little nervous.
But then.....
He began to tell me his story about how he had been invited to spend Thanksgiving with the family of the guy he was working for and just before they were to have their meal, his boss fired him. I want go into all of that, but I will say that after hearing His story and realizing the very real pain He was in, and at that particular moment in time , all He really wanted and needed was a sympathetic ear, I am so grateful that God had me in that place at that moment. He had walked to the camping area from his bosses house to wait for a friend to pick him up and we had about 2 hrs to talk.
What I'm realizing more and more now that I am beginning to get my head out of the sand, is that there are a lot of hurting people out there who are just wanting someone, anyone really, that they can empathize with. Funny.... but after talking, I believe we both felt better.
Thanksgiving can come in ways you least expect.
Mine was Full !!!
What I'm realizing more and more now since
Let me tell you about mine....
The campground where I am staying ( if you want to call it that ) was deserted as of Wednesday night, and I only saw 2 other people. Wednesday evening about 5:30, I went over to the bathhouse for a shower, and there was this very odd looking person standing at the door to the ladies room. Upon inspection and saying hello, I could tell that something was not quite right with this one. Now please understand that I lived in Tn.-Ky. for about 20 years and I know an " inbred" when I see one. One particular family in Tn. had two "inbred" sons that would cut and deliver firewood to me. These guys were completely harmless, but would scare the !@#$ out of you if you were not expecting them. So when I saw this person at the bathhouse I immediately recognized their condition.
I went on in to the bathhouse and pulled the flimsy chain across the door to lock it. I waited about 10 mins. before I began my shower to make sure there was an "all clear". About 5 mins. into my shower I heard the door being yanked open, and yeeeess! it was the "inbred".I started screaming saying " what the !@#$ are you doing, get the @#$% out of here", then they started screaming, saying what I only could hear as "Sawey,Sawey,Sawey". What seemed like an eternity, only lasted a few seconds and they took off with what I can only describe as a very fast waddle, never to be seen since.
And then......
Yesterday on Thanksgiving, I decided to drive 35 miles to a CrackerBarrel to have a Thanksgiving lunch because 1. I deserve it and 2. haven't had a cooked meal for almost a month. There were hundreds of people there and I thought, no way am I going to wait 2 hrs for a table, so I got a "to go" plate and high tailed it out of there.
Arrived back at camp, had my meal ( which I was Very thankful for, it was delicious!) and was straightening up the inside of my truck when out of nowhere, (really) this guy says "Hello". I turn around to see this 30-40ish guy standing behind me with this sheepish grin on his face,asking me if it would be OK if he rested on at the picnic table for a while. I was thinking," Oh great, what else is going to be thrown at me". With no one else around I was feeling a little nervous.
But then.....
He began to tell me his story about how he had been invited to spend Thanksgiving with the family of the guy he was working for and just before they were to have their meal, his boss fired him. I want go into all of that, but I will say that after hearing His story and realizing the very real pain He was in, and at that particular moment in time , all He really wanted and needed was a sympathetic ear, I am so grateful that God had me in that place at that moment. He had walked to the camping area from his bosses house to wait for a friend to pick him up and we had about 2 hrs to talk.
What I'm realizing more and more now that I am beginning to get my head out of the sand, is that there are a lot of hurting people out there who are just wanting someone, anyone really, that they can empathize with. Funny.... but after talking, I believe we both felt better.
Thanksgiving can come in ways you least expect.
Mine was Full !!!
What I'm realizing more and more now since
What a wonderful story! The shower part must have given you quite a scare but even after that you had enough insight and compassion to really listen to a fellow human being who needed a friend.
Thanks for sharing again!
Thanks for sharing again!
WriterMs
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Hupomone,
You are indeed an EXTRAORDINARY person, not just "okay." You are both brave and compassionate. In being open to talk with a strange man who startled you, you must have renewed his faith in people. The boss had just exhibited a very low end of human behavior, but then the man found you to exhibit the height of kindness and caring.
I will be so happy to meet you at RTR.
You are indeed an EXTRAORDINARY person, not just "okay." You are both brave and compassionate. In being open to talk with a strange man who startled you, you must have renewed his faith in people. The boss had just exhibited a very low end of human behavior, but then the man found you to exhibit the height of kindness and caring.
I will be so happy to meet you at RTR.
karl
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It appears that we have another awakening heroine among us.
Hupomone-
A Lakota Sioux phrase that has helped me often is simply "Hoka Hey! " it means Take Courage.
Another handy tool is the "Giveaway" -in its spiritual sense it means letting go of something you have held on to, thereby creating a void to be filled with something new. You can replace old with new. It is your choice.....
Giving away(sharing) pain creates a void, it can be filled with more pain or with joy, your choice. It appears that you are choosing joy, good.
Healing ones Self helps others heal- you are already an inspiration to others.
Hugs
Hupomone-
A Lakota Sioux phrase that has helped me often is simply "Hoka Hey! " it means Take Courage.
Another handy tool is the "Giveaway" -in its spiritual sense it means letting go of something you have held on to, thereby creating a void to be filled with something new. You can replace old with new. It is your choice.....
Giving away(sharing) pain creates a void, it can be filled with more pain or with joy, your choice. It appears that you are choosing joy, good.
Healing ones Self helps others heal- you are already an inspiration to others.
Hugs
Hey everyone,
I know that most of my posts have been about a lot of gaggy , froo-froo talk and I do apologize if its been a bit much for anyone. I'm really not a froo-froo kind of person, but there's just been so much on my heart for "sharing".
Soon I will be getting down to the nitty-gritty aspects of truck living and will have tons of questions for you all.
Thanks for putting up with my "heart thoughts" in the mean time.
Hope I haven't made you all to sick1
I know that most of my posts have been about a lot of gaggy , froo-froo talk and I do apologize if its been a bit much for anyone. I'm really not a froo-froo kind of person, but there's just been so much on my heart for "sharing".
Soon I will be getting down to the nitty-gritty aspects of truck living and will have tons of questions for you all.
Thanks for putting up with my "heart thoughts" in the mean time.
Hope I haven't made you all to sick1
Found out today that a repuement has been found for the elderly cotea that I have been caring for. Looks like i will be leaving for Az two weeks sooner and two paychecks shorter than I planned on.
But youknow what? I'm just gonna roll with the flow. I have no other plan.
I'm scared you guys, I'll admit it. I have no idea which way I will travel (west of course) or where I will stop along the way, but I do know that I may be scared, but I'm tough. As my mom used to say" It's time to Buck Up"
So.......I'm going to Buck Up and head out tuesday.
Wish me luck, gonna need it!
But youknow what? I'm just gonna roll with the flow. I have no other plan.
I'm scared you guys, I'll admit it. I have no idea which way I will travel (west of course) or where I will stop along the way, but I do know that I may be scared, but I'm tough. As my mom used to say" It's time to Buck Up"
So.......I'm going to Buck Up and head out tuesday.
Wish me luck, gonna need it!
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Drive safe, sing lots. I bet by the time I meet you at RTR you already will have a new fam-damily there!
Sassy in a white hi-top Ford van
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highdesertranger
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Hupomone what RVpopeye was saying is keep your tires on the ground. when your tires are not on the ground you are having a bad day. highdesertranger
