ParadiddlePenny
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Hello,
I am a misfit. Always have been, always will be (apparently) I 've always felt like a square peg attempting to fit into this round hole called society. So naturally I am quite the loner as well. Yet, I believe that I may have found a place in the world where I could belong.
As for my introduction to the group...
I worked a job for many years which I only loved for the benefit of servitude. I cherish being useful and helpful to other's. Yet, otherwise I hated my job and myself due to belonging to the rat race and feeling stuck simply for the reward of a good paycheck and a pension. Ironically 1 yr and a half from my retirement, covid hit and I had too make a life altering decision about the direction of my life though. The dilemma being, stay at my job for the good paycheck and pension as I was so close to receiving but not know when I would ever see my elderly Mother again? I worked in public transit (I really love driving!) on the campus of a major University. Many students were international students which for years I saw as a great value to my life. But when covid began, many students were already sick and acting carelessly about it. They were traveling all over the world and returning back to College which I worked. So I was in serious peril at that point and either I would've been dead myself or at the very least contagious to my Mother. I couldn't have allowed her around me for an indefinite amount of time if I didn't not act quickly. I truly love my Mother more than anything, she is my greatest friend in this life (and my dog, too) and we're so close. Hence, I moved and chose to be my Mother's side. Actually, that was my only choice. I shall be right here by her side until she takes her last breath. Nevertheless, I have been especially introspective and realize that I have nothing to show for all the years of working a job I hated. Which leaves me feeling a great loss and not quite realizing the gain. Because foolishly, I thought I would be quite the asset to the current workforce. I was so wrong. Nobody seems all that eager to hire a 55 yr old woman, no matter how strong her work ethic is, no matter how much she work circles around the younger people she work with.
In fact...I was always taught that you do good and good will certainly come back to you. You work hard and your hard work will pay off. Be honest. But honesty is not getting anybody anywhere anymore. Truth is absolute for me however. I would rather be completely destitute and be honest rather than the reverse. The world and humanity is changing at a mind boggling pace. I feel overwhelmed and confused by the world around me. So I've made another life changing choice and decided that when my Sunshine (Mom) crosses over to the other side I shall certainly move into my car and hit the road. I have always been a vagabond in spirit, I hate feeling stuck and I need to be surround by nature to be healthy in my soul anyway. Therefore, I feel that I would love to join a tribe of like-minded souls when the time comes for me. I'm in no way walking on water myself, not by any means, but I do loathe fakeness, greedy, loud obnoxious character's, etc...etc. I strive with all my heart & soul never too fall prey to these shortcomings. I've watched hours of Bob's youtube videos learning everything I need to know for great Nomad success and I've never sensed none of that within your lovely tribe's and caravans. I love, value and appreciate the kindness of human's, integrity, and strength of spirit etc...etc. That I pick up strongly within your pack of humans. I am no longer interested in pursuing the American dream, whatsoever. I want to live and be free before I pass through this life.
Thanks for your time. I look forward to knowing the people I am destined to call, friend. Ciao!
Most Sincerely,
Lori
I am a misfit. Always have been, always will be (apparently) I 've always felt like a square peg attempting to fit into this round hole called society. So naturally I am quite the loner as well. Yet, I believe that I may have found a place in the world where I could belong.
As for my introduction to the group...
I worked a job for many years which I only loved for the benefit of servitude. I cherish being useful and helpful to other's. Yet, otherwise I hated my job and myself due to belonging to the rat race and feeling stuck simply for the reward of a good paycheck and a pension. Ironically 1 yr and a half from my retirement, covid hit and I had too make a life altering decision about the direction of my life though. The dilemma being, stay at my job for the good paycheck and pension as I was so close to receiving but not know when I would ever see my elderly Mother again? I worked in public transit (I really love driving!) on the campus of a major University. Many students were international students which for years I saw as a great value to my life. But when covid began, many students were already sick and acting carelessly about it. They were traveling all over the world and returning back to College which I worked. So I was in serious peril at that point and either I would've been dead myself or at the very least contagious to my Mother. I couldn't have allowed her around me for an indefinite amount of time if I didn't not act quickly. I truly love my Mother more than anything, she is my greatest friend in this life (and my dog, too) and we're so close. Hence, I moved and chose to be my Mother's side. Actually, that was my only choice. I shall be right here by her side until she takes her last breath. Nevertheless, I have been especially introspective and realize that I have nothing to show for all the years of working a job I hated. Which leaves me feeling a great loss and not quite realizing the gain. Because foolishly, I thought I would be quite the asset to the current workforce. I was so wrong. Nobody seems all that eager to hire a 55 yr old woman, no matter how strong her work ethic is, no matter how much she work circles around the younger people she work with.
In fact...I was always taught that you do good and good will certainly come back to you. You work hard and your hard work will pay off. Be honest. But honesty is not getting anybody anywhere anymore. Truth is absolute for me however. I would rather be completely destitute and be honest rather than the reverse. The world and humanity is changing at a mind boggling pace. I feel overwhelmed and confused by the world around me. So I've made another life changing choice and decided that when my Sunshine (Mom) crosses over to the other side I shall certainly move into my car and hit the road. I have always been a vagabond in spirit, I hate feeling stuck and I need to be surround by nature to be healthy in my soul anyway. Therefore, I feel that I would love to join a tribe of like-minded souls when the time comes for me. I'm in no way walking on water myself, not by any means, but I do loathe fakeness, greedy, loud obnoxious character's, etc...etc. I strive with all my heart & soul never too fall prey to these shortcomings. I've watched hours of Bob's youtube videos learning everything I need to know for great Nomad success and I've never sensed none of that within your lovely tribe's and caravans. I love, value and appreciate the kindness of human's, integrity, and strength of spirit etc...etc. That I pick up strongly within your pack of humans. I am no longer interested in pursuing the American dream, whatsoever. I want to live and be free before I pass through this life.
Thanks for your time. I look forward to knowing the people I am destined to call, friend. Ciao!
Most Sincerely,
Lori
