I play guitar and bass at the church where I worship, but mostly bass. We've had other bass players over the years, and I think most are better than me, but they seem to have no "stay-power", if you know what I mean. They always seem to be looking for a bigger, fancier venue with a bigger audience to perform for....not good motivation for true worship.
I've been playing and writing music for over 40 years, but I don't publish anywhere yet....haven't had the interest in that. It's a bit like something I have to express and "get it out" now and then. Mostly gospel, but some secular/romantic, too. Not interested in "being discovered" or being a star, either. It's not the money or fame....it's something I was created to do.
I also found that I'm not the only one that uses music as a "mental enema"....other musicians I know have expressed the same thing about it to me. It's like we all go bonkers if we can't do it for any length of time, for whatever reason. Along that note, I've found that, when you find something (anything) you were made to do, you can still avoid or disregard it and do something else, but you'll never be satisfied or happy if you take that route.
I play and write music because I was created to do so, and there are other things I was created to do, but I've no real need to share all that here for now. Perhaps I'll see some of you at an RTR and we'll have some fun with this!