Elaine,
Please accept my sincerest apology. Truly, my intent was not to hurt you in any way or to be mean. It is difficult via this medium to convey one's meaning in few words. I am absolutely sorry that I didn't express myself more succinctly. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I will try harder to be more cautious in the future.
I have been a lurker here for over a year. There are people here who will go out of their ways to help others. There are also people who ask for help. That is how it should be. People helping people. What others are suggesting to you are ideas that, to them, may be obvious but may be difficult for you to implement, in more ways than one. Selling your lot in the RV Resort, an action that you have already considered (from what I read in previous posts), may not be something you are ready to do. Camping in such a large trailer in a boondocking situation may mean selling your two large trailers (if I read that part right? Two large trailers won't fit on your lot?) and living in something much smaller that is easier to handle and heat, doesn't sound like what you want.
When one's back is against that wall, the decisions that may need to be made are tough ones. Your dream of an Airstream, decorated in shabby chic, parked in an expensive RV Resort, all on $600 a month, is a dream for now. Nothing wrong with that! But you may have to back out of what you have done so far and regroup. Many people in this type of situation are so tired from fighting life's battles, from realizing that decisions they made in the past may not, in today's glaring light, have been the best, that they just can't do it anymore. Or at least it feels that way, right?
Ergo, my question: Will you? And will you be able to make the hard decisions that mean backing away from your dream for now, or scaling your dream down to a more manageable for now level?
I do hope this doesn't sound mean or harsh. Many of us have been in similar spots as you now find yourself
and know how tough it can be. Life is harsh and sometimes mean. And I know that sometimes, it's just too much. I mean these words as food for thought for you. To encourage you to take a step back, breathe, and rethink your choices. Can you do that?
Whatever you decide, you are in my thoughts and I send positive wishes in your direction. And again, please forgive me for thoughtlessly hurting your feelings.