Change in Plans

[AmieW]

Got some not-so-good news from my doctors yesterday (I don't want to divulge personal info, so please don't ask), so I won't be going full-time next summer as I planned. Plus, I pretty much have decided that comfort is important to me in my old age, especially with my old and new medical issues, so  I'm still going to get a minivan, but I'm not going to live in it full time. As time and health and money permit, I'll be taking short trips of a week or so  here and there, mostly in the summer to get away from this horrible FL heat. I'll be looking for some place better to live, too. I know there is no perfect climate, but I can take cold better than heat, so I need a place with cooler summers, then I'll travel during the winter to get away from the cold.

I have to admit, while van dwelling sounds awesome, I cannot imagine myself living that way every day. I hate even being crammed into this 520 sf apartment, but I can remedy that by decluttering and minimalizing. But I don't think my lupus will permit me to go without climate control without being in way too much pain and agony all the time. Plus, with the news I got yesterday, I don't know what my body is in for in the future.

Anyway, bottom line is that I need to stay here for medical treatment for the next year, but I'm still working toward being a part-timer at least. I don't know why I expected any different. My entire life has been having dreams and having them slashed to bits by reality every time. I thought it couldn't get worse once I lost everything, but boy, was I wrong. Sometimes struggling gets to be almost too much, and I wonder how much longer I can be strong and fight through adversity. Then I do it, because I have never been a quitter. Like John Lennon says, life is what happens while you're making other plans.

But got to get to work now. Vans don't pay for themselves.

 

[Putts]

It's hard to be a human. It's hard to be sane in an insane world. The biggest adventure is inside you. No matter what happens outside, inside your conscious being is all you and within your control. What seem like setbacks are opportunities to have rich experiences...whether pain or pleasure. Stand on that solid ground of being within as you experience. The physical and metaphysical are worlds apart, know where you live. Spirit in a meatbag.

Hang in there, Amie, one step at a time.

Big hug.

 

[Gardenias]

You were on my mind so I logged on to check and see how you were doing and saw your new thread...I'll add you to my prayers and meditations if that's okay with you. Hugs!

 

[waldenbound]

AmieW, I'm sorry for the bad news.

 

[bigsallysmom]

Sounds like time to thump a couple of trees with a plastic baseball bat.

 

[Queen]

Been thinking about your post. It sounds like you're doing what is best for you, not everyone wants or needs to full time. Some here wouldn't live any other way, I applaud them for their gumption and certitude, others choose part time for a multitude of reasons, and I honor and respect that they know best what they need for themselves.

I've always wanted to fulltime, my beloved does not, so where does that leave us... well, after much considered thought, she is right. I am barely able to handle life in a sticks and bricks. I limp pretty badly and my leg hurts much of the time, uneven ground is a nightmare, and as much as I want to be "out there", my reality is that my warm comfy bed, easy to use shower, and recliner where I can prop my bum leg up while icing it also has tremendous appeal.

Guess it all boils down to different strokes.

 

[djkeev]

Plans change, if you've any experience living life you are well aware of this fact.

Some changes are for the better...... others? Not so much!

But whatever it is, you adapt and accept the changes. If you don't you'll go batty beating yourself up!

Take care of yourself, do what is right for you and by all means, get out of that God Awful Florida! BTDT! I can't stand the "new" Florida of never ending houses and shopping malls!

I liked the old Florida before the Palm Coast set up the pattern to turn lovely empty beach front into tacky crowded housing!

A1A used to be one of my favorite highways, today, I avoid it at all costs!

Dave

 

[ganto]

sorry to hear this you'll be in my prayers to get better

 

[Gardenias]

djkeev, "BTDT" Thanks! I learned another acronym.

 

[AmieW]

I apologize for taking so long to respond, but I've had computer problems.

Thank you for all the support. I can still travel, and still am getting a van. I just have to be here for treatments. So full-time is just on hold, but I hope not indefinitely. I'm not dying. I don't have a terminal illness, unless you want to count life in general, but I do need some serious medical care to overcome what I'm facing. I'm a tough old broad, though, and have now been told twice that I would die (once when the lupus treatments didn't work and once when I had breast cancer) and I've defied all the odds, so I ain't goni' nowhere! A country girl can survive!

 

[Putts]

From here it looks like you've got this. You go, girl.


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[Gardenias]

Thanks AmieW! I'd been wondering about you, think of you often; and you continue to be in my nightly prayers.