ellenhaas2001
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Hello all. A little about me...I was forced into retirement last September at 55 years old. It was a complete shock. I was so busy running the rat race and raising my daughter as a single parent, I never thought much about what to do after retirement because I thought I had 6-8 years to "prepare" and start a "hobby". I used those quotes sarcastically. The only material thing that I really enjoyed was riding my bicycle. I used to cycle commute to my job almost every day; living in south Florida made that possible. Well, once I stopped working I have fallen into a deeper depression than I have ever experienced. My (work) friends have mostly dropped communication. I've almost completely stopped cycling, I've been sitting in front of the computer, bingeing on netflix or amazon prime, or more recently youtube videos of van dwellers. Being "self quarantined" has been my life for the past six months, I'm killing myself and I know it. I've always been a very anxious person due to myriad reasons. I'm a loner type person because of it. I really like helping others but I have a hard time asking a favor for myself, I guess I think no one will help or I'm not worth helping. Stinkin' thinking, I know. Somehow, I think my new hobby is going to be creating my own mobile home and meeting a tribe and making new friends and having to ask for help because I know nothing about solar power or electricity or wiring but I'm not afraid of hard work or learning new things. I also have some tools. I'm glad to be here and learn some new skills and improve myself as a human being. I like the quote from Shawshank Redemption---get busy living or get busy dying.