Another day is here and now I realize how hard it is to break from the norm. My daughter thinks I'm moving out of her apt. on Saturday and moving into a shared apt. when in fact I got scammed off Craigslist for $600. I have no where to go here, at least not yet. I haven't camped out in years and after putting together the numbers for a decent car I have no money for food. I did look at East Bay, North Bay and every other bay and concluded it is just too expensive living here. Blackcat offered me a place to crash with a sleeping bag in L.A. (never been there BTW), but don't know her and its another unknown. I could just go to where Bob suggested and try living on BLM and saving money, but the prospect of living without any vehicle nearby kind of freaks me out. I know I'm coming up with all kinds of excuses and rationales what can happen, maybe happen or will happen. My mind is constantly racing with thoughts, mostly negative. I haven't had any kind of peace for a long time and a part of me wonders if big spaces will clear my mind and soul. Once again I appreciate ya'll's thoughts and ideas, it helps frame my thoughts for new reference points in a hopeful new kind of existence.
Ya'll take care,
Bama
Ya'll take care,
Bama