ilovemyvan
Well-known member
Hey ladies,
I'm almost intimidated posting on this sections. I admire all of you so much. I admire strong ladies. I need to talk and get some advices and I think you're the group I trust most. So here I go.
My husband and I have been together since 1989. We had known each other for years prior to that. We met skydiving in 1977 The second year we were together we bought around the world tickets and backpack for a year. It was a blast. It wasn't always a bed of roses but when we faced a difficulty we worked it out well. We were together 24/7, except for 1 day. After 9 months I told him I needed a day to myself. We are so much alike that we ended up at the same restaurant for lunch. We still laugh over that one.
Following the year trip we converted a school bus and went back to the skydiving scene. After 8 years we bought a piece of land and physically build our own house.
I'm telling you all this because I want to explain the kind of couple we are. We like to achieve big goals. We enjoy doing it together. We love and are devoted to each other very much. We never had children.
About 10 years ago I was diagnosed bipolar. Long story short, I've been spending the last 10 years alone in the house with pretty much only my husband. I can't socialize any more or I go nuts for days after I do. It's hard even for me to believe that after all the crazy things my husband saw me do, he still loves me. He even says that he admires me for dealing with bipolar as well as I do.
A couple of years ago we converted a van. We always said that we wanted to do our international traveling while we were young and then we'd do more around US and Canada (we're Canadians, now US legal aliens) in our later years...which is now.
I don't know what happened to us but it seems like we can not travel together any more. I'm so crushed. He will be retiring at the end of January. We were planning a 3 - 4 months trip in the van starting in May but we had to Xed that. We can barely travel together for 3 weeks at the time. I turn into such a bitch and hate myself for it. I do well when I go by myself but when the 2 of us go, we're not getting along too good. That is so strange because that's the first time in over 25 years that we can not do something together. I hate myself for being the way I am, impatient, not knowing what I want, I try to hide it but I'm not doing a very good job of it. (I'm 62 and over menopause except for the hot flashes)
I have no idea if this is the evolution of my bipolar or what. Am I the only one having problem dealing with traveling with my husband in a van or are there some more like me? Do you have any advice for me? We were so looking forward to all the traveling in the van and I'm spoiling it, damn it!
It would be such a waste to be house bound. The way things are at the moment, we always decide to come back home a few days early. Something is not right and I want to fix it, I just don't know how.
Thanks
Nicole
I'm almost intimidated posting on this sections. I admire all of you so much. I admire strong ladies. I need to talk and get some advices and I think you're the group I trust most. So here I go.
My husband and I have been together since 1989. We had known each other for years prior to that. We met skydiving in 1977 The second year we were together we bought around the world tickets and backpack for a year. It was a blast. It wasn't always a bed of roses but when we faced a difficulty we worked it out well. We were together 24/7, except for 1 day. After 9 months I told him I needed a day to myself. We are so much alike that we ended up at the same restaurant for lunch. We still laugh over that one.
Following the year trip we converted a school bus and went back to the skydiving scene. After 8 years we bought a piece of land and physically build our own house.
I'm telling you all this because I want to explain the kind of couple we are. We like to achieve big goals. We enjoy doing it together. We love and are devoted to each other very much. We never had children.
About 10 years ago I was diagnosed bipolar. Long story short, I've been spending the last 10 years alone in the house with pretty much only my husband. I can't socialize any more or I go nuts for days after I do. It's hard even for me to believe that after all the crazy things my husband saw me do, he still loves me. He even says that he admires me for dealing with bipolar as well as I do.
A couple of years ago we converted a van. We always said that we wanted to do our international traveling while we were young and then we'd do more around US and Canada (we're Canadians, now US legal aliens) in our later years...which is now.
I don't know what happened to us but it seems like we can not travel together any more. I'm so crushed. He will be retiring at the end of January. We were planning a 3 - 4 months trip in the van starting in May but we had to Xed that. We can barely travel together for 3 weeks at the time. I turn into such a bitch and hate myself for it. I do well when I go by myself but when the 2 of us go, we're not getting along too good. That is so strange because that's the first time in over 25 years that we can not do something together. I hate myself for being the way I am, impatient, not knowing what I want, I try to hide it but I'm not doing a very good job of it. (I'm 62 and over menopause except for the hot flashes)
I have no idea if this is the evolution of my bipolar or what. Am I the only one having problem dealing with traveling with my husband in a van or are there some more like me? Do you have any advice for me? We were so looking forward to all the traveling in the van and I'm spoiling it, damn it!
It would be such a waste to be house bound. The way things are at the moment, we always decide to come back home a few days early. Something is not right and I want to fix it, I just don't know how.
Thanks
Nicole