I gave my notice to vacate for September 30th 2021. I had to give 60 days but I gave it on July 7th, 84 days, in order to generate a sense of urgency. Burn the ships.
At that time all I needed was to sell my 2002 Ford Escape 4x4 and I could afford a van. I left it in for inspection and to sell it I'd have to put the same amount into it I was asking. So plan B. Start off in the Escape.
This scared me, daunted me, freaked me out. I went through a lot of stress in recent weeks accepting the fact.
I was stuck in the no mans land of comfortably surrounded by my things and letting go..
I'm letting go more now and committing to the Escape. After all, this was the idea of burning the ships. Had I not, I might say give it another month or 2 and save more, but nothing is more important to me than just getting started.
I'm not totally being forced into this. I just can't stand living in an apartment building any longer. I've been in an intense state of stress for well over a year, not only due to lockdowns destroying my business, but the noise all around me.
My options are to stay here and recover my business and get it strong again and keep going here, or hurling myself into the screaming abyss of the unknown to see if my healing is there.
I choose to dive.
I just got home from a 20 minute run through the doggie park with Blue, took off my shoes and took down all my pictures. Just that alone made things feel lighter.
I have been ordering like a madman off Amazon everything I think I'll need for breakdown recovery and living comfortably, according to what I find on Bobs' channel as well as his Udemy course. The money I had saved for the van is going into this. Also got new tires and some safety issues fixed on the Escape, tie rod, breaks.
I'm gonna take out the passenger seat as well as the back ones to maximize space. I'll get a roof box too. Can't wait to get out there and boondock on some Ontario crown lands. I'm getting more excited for life in the Escape and committing to making it work with it's limited space, but less limited maneuverability and places in nature it will open up.
At that time all I needed was to sell my 2002 Ford Escape 4x4 and I could afford a van. I left it in for inspection and to sell it I'd have to put the same amount into it I was asking. So plan B. Start off in the Escape.
This scared me, daunted me, freaked me out. I went through a lot of stress in recent weeks accepting the fact.
I was stuck in the no mans land of comfortably surrounded by my things and letting go..
I'm letting go more now and committing to the Escape. After all, this was the idea of burning the ships. Had I not, I might say give it another month or 2 and save more, but nothing is more important to me than just getting started.
I'm not totally being forced into this. I just can't stand living in an apartment building any longer. I've been in an intense state of stress for well over a year, not only due to lockdowns destroying my business, but the noise all around me.
My options are to stay here and recover my business and get it strong again and keep going here, or hurling myself into the screaming abyss of the unknown to see if my healing is there.
I choose to dive.
I just got home from a 20 minute run through the doggie park with Blue, took off my shoes and took down all my pictures. Just that alone made things feel lighter.
I have been ordering like a madman off Amazon everything I think I'll need for breakdown recovery and living comfortably, according to what I find on Bobs' channel as well as his Udemy course. The money I had saved for the van is going into this. Also got new tires and some safety issues fixed on the Escape, tie rod, breaks.
I'm gonna take out the passenger seat as well as the back ones to maximize space. I'll get a roof box too. Can't wait to get out there and boondock on some Ontario crown lands. I'm getting more excited for life in the Escape and committing to making it work with it's limited space, but less limited maneuverability and places in nature it will open up.