I get your point Wagoneer. When I originally contemplated my intention's regarding this major lifestyle change, I was looking through the lens of other people. I was imagining how "most people" would view my decision to leave it all behind and start anew. And, then I came to the realization that many others on here have already noted- Am I really running away? Nope. I am running "to" something. I am running to a place where I can actualize my dreams and the way that I would like to live my life. If I were to stay put and never leave- then, living the dream and making it a reality would be an impossibility. Because, the people around me and the constraints of society would fight me at every turn. The way I see it, I can either be a coward and submit to my situation. Which, will assure that I'll never truly know if my dreams are attainable or not. Or, I can play ball. I just need to plant my feet, choke up on that bat and swing for the fences! Maybe, it'll be a swing and miss. Three strikes and I'm out. Who knows and who cares. It can't be any worse than my life is already. But , hell, maybe I'll hit that sonofabitch straight outta the park and get a free trot around the bases with a bunch of high-five's waiting for me at home plate. Either way, I won't have to look back and say "what if" any more. Because, that question will be answered one way or the other. And, right now- my heart's telling me that I need to man up, break out the pine pitch, rub down that bat and swing away.