Waiting.....

[MyShadowandMe]

I am new to this forum but I am not new to CheapRVLiving! I have been watching and learning for over two years.Sorry for such a long post but it i my story. I hope it print okay.  I have a degenerative condition that has caused me to have to put life on hold so many times. Surgery after surgery. After 3 back surgeries and 7 hip surgeries I thought I was finally going to get to make my move. My total focus was on vandwelling. Then one night a thought slammed into my head that I had to take care of my father. My PAPA & I talked into the wee hours of the morning so many nights about vandwelling and how right it was for me. I call him and asked if he needed my help yet and he didn't think so. But, he said, if you want, you can come out and I can help you build your van. AWESOME!!!! I decide to do it. I started getting ready to go and on 4/15/18 I get a phone call. Dad went into diabetic shock. Blood sugar went from 120 to 1170. They didn't know why he was still alive. I know why. He was waiting for me. I threw those things I didn't think I could live without into a storage unit and walked away from everything else and by 4/20 I was sitting in his bedroom. I left my furniture behind still in my apartment. On 7/10/18 he passed away. My mom,who has been with him since she was 12, still lives, but it is not a kindness. She is in a "Skilled Nursing Facility" at over $10,000 a month. So, I still have to wait on what my heart desires most and take care of the nightmare that they promised not to leave me with, their house and forty years of "stuff" stuffed into it. I have to sell the house and everything in it to pay for her care. Most of this I have to do alone. (Hopefully my evil brother from Iowa will get lost along with his truck)  I also have at least two more surgeries, one on each hand. So, I wait and watch and dream and learn while the years slip by. But I do know that it will happen. Maybe in a few months I will be able to walk up to one of you kind souls and say, "Hi there! My name is Melinda! And I am finally here and I am so happy to meet you and so is Shadow (my service dog - a Newfoundoodle! Mix between a Newfi & Standard Poodle) Oh, and WHERE IS BOB?!!!!! See Ya!